"Those who deserve love the LEAST need it the MOST..."

*note: this is a serious blog about what I have been struggling with...

So the title is song lyrics..A Sponge In The Ocean by The Color Morale...And it has been stuck in my head and my heart for days now.

I have a really hard time getting along with my sister. She is very difficult. And I am angry at her a lot. And I finally figured out why, after thinking about it ALL day. Church really got me thinking too...

I HATE conflict. Its in my personality type thingy, and boy is it true. I'm an ISFP & a Peacemaker...haha!

Anywho...Mikkena causes a TON of conflict in my family, and its not easy for me to be around it. Pastor Tim's sermons on anger have helped me a lot, because now I know why I get angry at her.

1. She is keeping me from being conflict free, which he talked about. {getting angry at something cuz it is keeping you from something you want} 
2. Her issues make me angry cuz I love her and I want her to be normal and listen to me and my parents. Cuz I know its just gona hurt her when she is older, if she doesnt change. {he talked bout how if you love someone, and they have problems (like sin) you might get angry because it is hurting that person. But if you hate them, then you are indifferent. I hope I understood that right...correct me if I'm wrong!}

So yea... now for the song lryics:


"Those who deserve love the least need it the most..."

Mikkena is incredibly mean to me, and she loves to annoy me sooooo much. She is really snotty, and never listens to me. She makes me angry, and its hard to spend time with her. So in my eyes she doesnt really deserve my love, (I know this isnt right, she still deserves my love cuz it would be following Christ's example! but just go with me on this one) BUT...even though she deserves my love the least...she really needs it the most....

Maybe it will help her change...maybe it will help the conflict go down...maybe it will make our house more fun to live in...maybe it could change our lives...maybe God has put that on my heart this week, so that I can make a change....it only takes one person to make a change...


help me...please...

songs...

1. A Sponge In The Ocean- The Color Morale
2. Something Holy- Stellar Kart
3. Every Little Thing- Hawk Nelson

<3 Megan